[hulk_hogan]

So I am currently engaged to my girlfriend of 2 years and the wedding is 174 days a way, invatations not sent yet, but the save the date or pre-invataions or whatever have been sent. And I do love here, she is a good girl, a real pure and honest girl, so pure and honest she has no ideas about the risks of roleplaying, she calls it medications and thinks they are about as serious as antibiotics. I am 31 and she is 30 and I am only the 5th guy she has slept with, she was the only girl tht ever made me wait over a month for sex, hell she was the only girl who made we make over 2 days for sex that i can remember, lol.

So 3 weeks ago she got a boob job and a little lipo, and we have not been able to have sex since, nor will we for another 3 weeks. I know this is no excuse for what happened but I just wanted to throw it out there.

I met a girl who was a stripper, lving in a real crappy hotel and was actaully only in my area cuz her car brokedown and she had no way of getting bak to where she came from so she started stripping to earn cash to fix car, but the hotel bascially cost about what she earned and she was making little to no headway. I began to see alot of myself in her as she is 19 and a young soul making bad choices as i was when i was younger and we hit it off and had realy only what i could describe as the most mind blowing sex i have ever had in my whole life.

this isnt just about the sex though we enjoyed hanging out and goofing around ect

but my girlfriend is not really that much fun in bed, and right now she isnt even having sex with me due to the surgery

anyway me and this younger girl started getting intense and she told me how people treated her at the strip club, and i didnt like hearing about it, i wanted to protect her and i became emotionally involved, i made her quit, but now unemployed she has no where to go, so instead of paying for her hotel, i told her i would buy her a plane ticket back to texas, and i put her on a plane yesterday morning and i was hoping out of sight out of mind, and that i would just move and forget about it

i have been a wreck ever since, she called me the second she landed and told me she wants to come back and be with me and i lost it

i also got in a fight with my girlfriend and told her i wasnt sure if i loved her anymore we began crying

i reakize i still love my girfriend, but i am NOT in love right now

i never cheated on her before and i wonder how much the no sex plays a part while she is in recovery

i also know if we had not sent out invites for the wdding, it probaly would be alot easir breaking up with her

any advice,please

i am despearate

thanks